my biggest secret is that ive actually sent you the past 5 or 6 secrets, and i'm not even remotely finished.... how sad of a fucking human being am i?
The word I would use is strong. You are strong.
May 2012
31 posts
i want to kill myself every day i wake up and every night before i go to bed. i. dont. have. the. fucking. guts.
i wish i was raped because i feel like then my family wouldnt take my "being molested" my whole life as a joke.. or as a "part of life" or as a lie for attention.. or as something i wanted bc i "needed attention".. ect ect. basically my family has made me believe that if you weren't actually raped, it doesn't fuckin matter.
I have scars, a lot. But I’ve stopped because now I have someone who kisses every one of them when I’m feeling sad.
My parents don't understand that I tihnk I have anxiety and think that because I'm almost sixteen I should just "get over" being afraid of doing certain things. When it's their fault for making me fear failure/disappointment in the first place.
I know I don’t put my opinion on submissions. But I am going to say this. For anyone who is feeling like this, you can go to your doctor at anytime and talk with them about it. You can go to school counselors and talk with them about it. I do have to say that I am 20 and I still am terrified of doing things. I don’t have my license because I am terrified of being in a car. I don’t like being behind the wheel. I freak out every time I think about it. Its hard not being able to drive. I want to drive. But I can’t do it. But like I said, you can work with your doctor or counselors. They might have some techniques to help calm you if you start feeling anxious. And if they doesn’t help, they can refer you to have medication. I hope you get the courage to get help for yourself. Just be strong through the tears and one day it will be better.
